Mood : Sleepy
Song for today : Fan _ Epik High



--- Survey is fun ---

[You and Others]

Are you special? : Nah
If yes, what makes you special?
If no, then why? : I'm just normal that's all
What attracts you to the opposite (or same) sex? : fingers and smile
What do you think makes you appeal to others? : -__-; I dunno
Exactly what makes a person attractive? : Sometimes just a little thing make it attractive,it depends on us person
Do you feel comfortable in crowds? : Yep if it's a crowd full of familiar ppl,if not,then no
Do you feel comfortable being touched (Hugged etc) by other people? : Again yes if they're the ones who' r close to me
Do you feel comfortable sharing possessions with others? : No HAHAHA I'm real possessive sometimes
Do you feel comfortable trusting others? : Yes hehe
Who, or what, has been the biggest positive influence on your life? : My goal
Who, or what, has been the biggest negative influence on your life? : dunno
Who has been the greatest support to you? : My friends and my mom
Who has been a hindrance or annoyance in your life? : My dad (sometimes) and some ppl I hate at school
Do you find it easy to admit your wrong? Yes,definitely
Do you find it easy to apologize? : No HAHAHA I barely say it and the sound of it when I speak seems broken ( does it make sense? o__o)

[Recent Things]

What was the last dream you remember? I barely remember anything about my dreams.All of them are random and seriously not sense at all. I have two kinds of dream : horror dreams where there's always (I mean it,always) a serial killer HAHAHA,yep you read it right. And a kind of nonsense plotless dream,but they're funny =D. My most recent dream is about a killer again (sounds creepy) but I seriously don't remember how it went.
What do you think that dream was trying to tell you? : How can I know?
What was the last thing you said to someone? Complain about some boring Chinese dramas
And the purpose for saying it? : To complain of course
What was the last good deed you did for someone? : Does PSing some pictures for my friends count?
What was the last bad turn you did for someone? : Don remember,and I don't do it anyways
When was the last time you smiled? : Like 30 minutes ago
Why did you smile? I just smile when I like it
Who was the last friend you spoke to? Van
What do you think of that friend? She's just not sure about everything she does
How do you feel now? Blank

[Reactions]

How do you react to:

A couple being affectionate together: Turn my head away
A homosexual couple being affectionate together: Stare and gasp O___O
A sex scene on TV/Film: Watch it normally -__-;
A person in tears before you: Huggle that person if I can lol ,or else pat their shoulder without saying anything. If this one is a stranger then I dunno,may be kind of curious
Someone being bullied/attacked: call the cops HAHAHA or worse run away HAHAHA
A tragedy or accident in the News: Cry.I'm seriously cry THAT easily
Some scandal on someone famous/important in the News: If I don like them then I don care.I have my own life
Charity advertisements (TV or otherwise): See if I can join or what
Praise from friends/loved ones: I know I'm weird but I seriously dunno how to react
Insults from friends/loved ones: scold back HAHAHA or deep in depressed thoughts -__-;
Praise from strangers: The same with below question
Insults from strangers: Ditto

[Opportunity]

If the opportunity came, would you sooner:

Travel to see a long lost old best friend, or a loved one: A loved one
Go out partying all night or stay in at home: Stay in at home
Move to live in a new city, or live where you were raised: A new city
Date a celebrity, or stick with what you know: Dating a celebrity that means I have to know about him,right? o__o
Start a career in music or within acting: Acting
Become rich or famous: Rich hehe
Live within a large house or small apartment: A small apartment
Marry young and live happily ever after, or have multiple fun flings forever: I don wanna marry young and have flings forever either
Become known for famous or infamous deeds: ?

[Song Section]

Name a song that reminds you of :
Friendship: Young gunz
Happiness: Key of heart
Love: Many
Lust/sex:
Excitement: many
Anger:
Hate:
Revenge:
Worry/Anxiety:
Depression:
Death:
Life: Vienna

And a song that:
Cheers you up: Young gunz,Eusha eusha
Makes you depressed:
You dance to: Many
You play whilst travelling:
Reminds you of a loved one:
Reminds you of yourself:

[The Future]

What are you going to do after this? : Sleep
What are you going to do tomorrow? : Go to university
What are your plans for the next five years? : Go abroad,find a good work,learn more and travel more
What do you honestly think will happen in another five years? : I dunno,I don wanna predict
Have you changed within the past five years? Yes,like a lot
Do you think you'll change within another five years? Yes of course
What career did you want as a child? President,something BIG and cool
What career do you want now? Something in makerting field,something involve advertising
Do you want to live to be 100? No.Life's cruel
Do you believe in life after death or reincarnation? : I wish I could

[Finally]

What do you want now? : Many things
How are you going to get/do it? : Go ahead and do everything I have to do
What question do you wish you were asked? Dunno
How would you answer that question? How the hell I know?

Mood : comfortable
Song for today : No song for today



It's raining outside ~ I love rain,it makes the weather cooler and the sky darker HAHAHA (WTH!??? lol) the best is staying at home,reading books,listening to some music while it rains outside ^_____^

After a couple of times reading yaoi fanfics (I know! HAHAHA),last weekend I came back to 'straight' fanfics HAHAHA. But it's really hard to find some good fics out there,to me at least. Some of them made me bored to death,it's not that they themselves r boring ff,but you know,they're too much like Korean dramas.I mean if I read fic to find drama then watching dramas is better. Or at least,make it romantic and comedy,I'm tired of some kind of tragedy already.You know,like a poor girl with all the best personalities in this world,who suffers a lot and a lot sadness and all.And out of nowhere,2-3 perfect princes pop out and the thing is all of them love her. Boring ~ If one is good,then everything about her is good.If one is bad,then there's none in this world worse than her. Bullshi.t

I love weak guys but I seriously hate weak girls HAHAHA OMG this is 2007 already,stop that kind of character,there's no creature in this planet has 100% innocent heirs in his head.
Anyway,I notice recently K-dramas has reduced these characters,that's good. I love Kim Sam Soon ! She's not perfect at all and I love that thing of her.She's real. ^___^

Yesterday we had a party,it was so so so tired. There was a cousin who was drunk and he just kept talking and talking and talking.If he hadn't gone with his wife and daughter,then maybe he would have slept overnight.So it was the LAST new year party.It's final. It ended~ We bought a lot of foods after Tet and were scared that we have to spend a month to eat them all up HAHAHA but now it's alright hehe. The guesses ate them all ^______^

Mood : relieved
Song for today : Forever _ Junjin ft Linda




I admit I'm a spoiled-rotten child.Not that kind of princess who uses gold spoon to eat,but well,I'm spoiled.I barely do housework (let's just say never -__-") cause my family has a charwoman,I'm provided everything I want,of course I don't command luxurious stuffs and I'm not kind of demanding person,but if I want it,then sooner or later I'll have it. I don have to care about all the fees like internet or cellphone,sometimes my mom scolds me a little about me using too much internet and the monthly fee is so higher than normal but then later I still use it unlimitedly.
And my father,he knows the best is not touching me,as I said a thousand times,we never get along well.But I have to say if I know how to reach or let say more clever in the way I treat him,I'll get much more than right now from him.He has more power and money after all.And I don say he doesn't love me,he's my father,I'm her daughter. However,he treats me really well (when we don have argument lol)
Then why I just complain this and that nonstop? This is such a bad habit I have to give it up,seriously.
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Tet's really over.I feel relieved.We still have a party in this Sunday but our charwoman will come back at that time so at least I don have to run like a headless chicken like these last recent days.
Coming back to university and all the daily worriment,now let's start. I hope at this time next year,I'll have good news for myself and you guys
Anyway is it o.k to learn Korean and Japanese at the same time? I'll do it anyway,nothing is impossible.Let's just try it :)
I feel like a new power is rising in my body right now HAHAHA Let's just hope it will last long cause I'm so much a moody person =D

You are :

WALNUT TREE (Passion) - unrelenting, strange and full of contrasts, often egotistic, aggressive, noble, broad horizon, unexpected reactions, spontaneous, unlimited ambition, no flexibility, difficult and uncommon partner, not always liked but often admired, ingenious strategist, very jealous and passionate, no compromise.

This is so true :) It's seriously me HAHA

Happy new year everyone ! :)

Mood : Blank
Song for today : All good things _ Nelly Furtado



I know I've said it 1464733287x times but still I have to say again : Tet IS stressful.
I can't sleep enough (at least for a holiday),I have to go out like half a day while other ppl spend their time relaxing,I have to do so many boring yet tired things,I have to eat couple of weird foods,I have to share my bed with my sister AND I don like it she's just keeping disturbing me in my sleep =D,we have too much guests to handle AND I hate crowd, my family argue like once a day ~
Really I'm just so much tired of those customs
The fact is although all the members in my family are generally easy and loveable people but each one (include me) has an annoying part in his character.My father is way too self-opinionated and he barely does housework or helps my mum and me doing something for that matter,like what the hell he just orders ppl do this and that.And my mum,she complains too much,what's the point of complaining nonstop here? And sometimes she just exaggerates too much.We just have to do it anyway.Like when I was really tired I just wanna tell her to shut up,really.
I'm a b!ch sometimes I know it.But in this situation I just keep quite and do whatever I have to do.Everybody IS tired and it's Tet anyway,try to keep cool is the best.Saying too much is just making more angst
Tet should end soon at least to me.So that everything will be like normal again and I can see smiles and smiles in everybody's face that's all.Funny how Tet is chance for everyone get together and be happy but everything is just quite opposite in this family.Dam.n it
Anyway I have enough money to buy this and it's the best thing of all right now.
I don even have time to go out with my friends or go out properly for that matter.


---- I've just realized I've made 3 entries just to complain about Tet HAHAHA poor thing has no fault here -___-; It's just us people make it upper stressful.So many ppl enjoy it so much and bad thing that amount of those lucky persons doesn't include me HAHAHA



21/2 edit ^__^ : Hey new skin! It's quite dark for my taste HAHA but it's neat and I don know but I really like it ^__^ The skin looks similar to livejournal's skins :) I edit something but it seems a little 'prolix' hmm but I'm really in lazy mood right now so let it be *yawn*
The weather is being moody ~ It had been hot like summer in the last 2-3 days and suddenly it's been raining all day today -____-; Hell

Mood : Idle
Song for today : Flavor of life _ Utada Hikaru





Happy Valentine everyone ! Am I the first to say it? ;) ~
Well,Valentine is like other normal days to me -__-; if I don say it's a rough day -__-; I'll have to put everything in my room in order again,make it clean and fresh 0__O,prepare for all Tet stuffs,then go out to buy something to decorate my room and new clothes too (shoppingggg *squeak*)
It's fun to see half of ppl around prepare things for their lovers and the rest complain nonstop about how lonely they are =D Tomorrow night I'll go out with my friends,go eat something yummy HAHAHA I seriously don care about love right now,I have too much things to do,let alone I've not prepared for this kind of stuffs -___-; I'm too young and I have to feel all the wonderful things of a single's life =D Why ppl just act like they lack of something because they don have girl/boyfriend yet? Hell,it make me sounds like a indifferent person but I swear I'm not ! It's just my friend always makes a big deal about her not having a bf HAHAHA ~ First and foremost thing is "Pig run project" HAHAHA I don care about every other things,really -__-;
So instead,tomorrow will be a fun day =D Going out with my best friends is always the best,lucky thing they don have boyfriend too HAHAHA I've seen one of my friend had been yearning for love HAHAHA then when she went to the university,some guys seemed have 'something' with her and she was like really happy and proud (^^) about that; but when this guy took it serious she went panic and ran away HAHAHA now she keeps saying "I love freedom" ~____~
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New skin again :]
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I seriously don like my father +___+

Mood : Bored -__-"
Song for today : I love you oh thank you _ MC Mong ft Kim Tea Woo

Tet is coming yet I'm tired of it already. I have 2 - week- break but really,go to school is even better. About 3-4 last recent years,it's become more and more tired,boring and all.
Before Tet,I have my father stays at home and keeps nagging me all day about how untidy my own room is,and commands me do this and that. I'm not afraid of doing anything .. err..o.k,just a little,I'm just annoyed at the way he says and acts ~ Talking about my father,we fought once again last week.It's now so natural for me to accept the fact that we will never never get along well.Trust me,just seeing my father presses some button in me,seriously,I dunno but I ALWAYS feel really annoyed when my father's around. And I guess,the same with him ~___~
About Tet again,it seems like the atmosphere nowadays also charges too.We have some integral customs,not that we like to do them,we MUST do them.And again,those things are really tired.Then we have to visit many many people,I don talk about our close relationships,I'm willing to visit my grandparents,my cousins ... but I also have to visit some other ppl,and it's especially stressful when at each house,we just keep saying the same lines,and the foods,oh God the foods,like in Tet almost every families have the same foods.And we can't refuse when they ask,it's Tet and we can't,so we eat some at this family and some at that family.It's pure torture -___-"
My friend is so lucky,her family will go travel -__-;; I'm so jealous ~___~
I'm thinking about how to re-decorate my room,I lack of ideas right now -__- it's difficult I tell you,the painting of the room is dark pink +___+,the carpet is black and red,the bed stuffs are colorful O___O it's hard to make some charge ~__~ not to mention I'm never good at this kind of thing.

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I finally made my own layout for the livejournal account ^^ it features the "Ano kado wo magatta tokoro" manga of Toko Kawai ^^ ~ Too bad the banner is a little crazy +_+ sometimes you have to refresh the page to see it +___+
I'm thinking about making a skin for this account but I've not found the code yet and it takes time so may be latter ^^"


Yesterday I've read some Yamato Nase's works and I really like them ^^,they're all so sweet and soft HAHAHA if you know what I mean ^____^

Mood : Confused
Song for today : No song for today


Sometimes I just think if everything is not bad like this from the start,then I won't have to be so confused like right now. And if I'm better from the start,or simply be more self confident,I won't have to be so worried,puzzled and even scared like right now.
I always think at least I'm good at some field,at some level but then again life just makes me feel helpless and let me think I can NOT do anything at all. I'm an optimistic person,hell yes,but .. I dunno,it's just like I wanna avoid everything and everybody,snuggle into my warm blanket in my warm room,be safe (or feel safe??!) and all.
Funny how I'm such a ambitious girl but at the same time so afraid of trying thing.Like,if I were like some of my friends who feel satisfied with all they have and don force themselves to do some big things.Life to them is simple.
But I'm different,I wanna try new things and get some things.But again,as I said,being a retarded myself,I don have strength to do what I want.I'm such a geek/
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I think I read way TOO much yaoi mangas HAHAHAHA,there are so many delicious mangas I can't resist -____-; I decided to order Only the ring finger knows novel version from Amazon,while I still have to earn money for Shinhwa stuffs +____+ but heck,the story is so good and you can't imagine how crazy I were when I found out the manga based on just half of the original novel HAHAHA I need money I'm so pathetic +___+
And I've not even started my movie poster for Ricdy event in SHCJ
+___+ I'm f*cking lazy and I have all the ideas but have done anything at all -_____-; I blamed the my new mouse (computer ^^) for being so stupid,like seriously it's a new one but it's so so so harder to move than the old one ~___~ And my mom threw it (the poor old one) already so I can't use PS ^^ HAHAHA I'm defending for myself being so freaking lazy =D
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Dongwan's new drama is really good,ppl nowadays,haish,they just watch some 'typical' dramas,like the actors in the drama are so handsome and adorable,their love is so cute and romantic blah blah blah -__-; I'm glad that DW chose for himself a REAL good script,in which he can prove his acting,not because it can make him more popular ~___~
But ok I admit,I now understand why DW was so worried that the fans would hate him for his character.I mean we r all fangirls *squeak*,we r so easy to sway HAHAHA,watching like that in the drama make me a little scared (???!) HAHAHA like he's such a dork in real life -___- sometimes he's so annoying for being so noisy and all -___-; (Agree wholeheartedly to Minwoo -__-") HAHA but now look at him,being so serious and angstfic-___-" He even have a baby and do some bad things with a strange girl O____O But I think that way he's now successful ^^ ~ I just keep being like "Wow.Ouch.Huhu.Where's usual Dongwannie??" while watching the drama ^^