Start this entry with a song of Radio head ~ I felt totally shock when I read it -__- it's 100% what's exactly in my mind ~ Yah,sometimes I just want to be special,i'm such a creep -___-

Creep
When you were here before, couldn't look you in the eye

You're just like an angel, your skin makes me cry

You float like a feather In a beautiful world

And I wish I was special You're so fucking special

But I 'm a creep, I 'm a weirdo

What the hell am I doing here

I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts, I want to have control

I want a perfect body, I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice

When I'm not around

You're so fucking special

I wish I was special

She's running out again She's running out ....

Whatever makes you happy Whatever you want

You're so fucking special I wish I was special...

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo

What the hell am I doing here?

I don't belong here I don't belong here.

So today I read that writing diary daily is a good habit,and almost none know my blog anyway =D So yeah,I will try to write 1 entry per day =D You know I'm lazy like hell T__T AND my life is full of randoms and boring and terrible and %%&%V*())*### things T__T

I went with Van (my new good friend in university =D) to her uncle's house,she'll have her new computer T_T I'm so jealous T_T I need a new computer so badly it hurt T________T !! My computer is such a b*tch T_____T Can you believe it?? I have to have it repaired 3 times already,in abt,hmm,2 months!!! WTF?? And the last time was just last week T__T And my computer is almost BLANK o_____o;; AGAIN o___o ALL my softwares ! ALL my files !! It pissed me off sooo much o___o ~ Cause you donno how hard to download from STUPID clubbox T__T AND how to find all the softwares T.T I feel like hell !!!!! AND it's not the ending T.T I lost ALL my PS stuffs o___o ALL my texts,ALL my brushes T_T ALL my texture and %%*%GJH^%&%$$ I just wanna die o____o WTF??? -_____-

And I also want a camera though,not exactly a camera T.T You know, the thing can be USB,play video and music,take pics and record T.T I want to be a camwhore T__T My walkman is somewhere I dunno and my MP3 is always stupid T_T ~ I need money $__$ huhuuhu ~ T____T

And I'm on a diet o___o AGAIN ~ i'm too fat o___o I feel like a pig o___o Shiettttt o___o Why do I have to be on diet anyway?? o___o I mean WTF i like chubby person o___o I 100% HATE skinny person ~ They have something makes me want to kick their asses T__T Hyesung is skinny BUT his face looks chubby !! But well you know,ppl dun want to be fat OR be called fat ~ AND i'm TOO fat,not just fat T__T So well... T_T

I'm tired,the weather is fucking hot and annoy T_T And i'm sick of ALL the boring subjects in University ~ Well,except something,I'm sick of everything T___T

I've bought 2 new books ~ They're excellent ^^ That kind of books that help you improve urself and be better ~ Oh well,it's extremely interesting , meaningful,useful and helpful ~ Have not finished them yet ~ but will soon =D Tomorrow I'll bring them to my class and read !!!! Muhahaha ~ Fertilizers make me sick T__T What's the hell they're for?? I don want to be a makerter in a fertilizer company anyway T__T

I just wanna sleep and eat o____o ~ But i'm on a diet,aren't I o___o ~

Here I am ~ again *sigh*,ya,me here. Again !
I admit,I was pretty upset when I wrote the previous entry ~ I was like... wanna die or kill something o__o I almost stressed at that time -___- felt really bad about everything ~ I don want to complain anymore,or talk abt THAT anymore ~ I'm sick of it and yah,I don care abt it ~ DON care it A BIT
As I said,life is beautiful when you look at its bright side ~ I'm trying. And I think it really can help. I feel much more better now :) Thanks God I'm a optimistic person -__- ~ Okay,I'm a MOODY girl o______0 ~ But still,I've never been depressed for a long time -___-
It have been 2 weeks since my first day in University,I swear it's boring like HELL ~ boring than High school abt 10x times o___o;; ALL the general stuffs o____o Except some subjects,the rests are incredibely horrible o___o ~ What's the hell in this world fetilizers for?? I mean WTF?? o___o;; Not to mention today I sucked at BADMINTON class o___o ~ I feel helpless T.T
But anyway,university is fun in its own way.C'mon,it's just 2 weeks isn't it ~ I have a long way to go still -___-
Today was my FIRST communication skills class ~ It was kinda weird to me o___o;;~ But I believe it will help me alot to improve myself. It's time to act,say and live like a mature girl ~ Yah,maaaaturrrre girl -___- Time to deal with all those stuffs -___- I still think I'm a kid though o____o;; I feel helpless o__o (again T.T)
The next 2 month,I will have my first exams in University,I still have no clue 0___0 ~ I'm scare to death ~ What if I fail??? T__T I hate MATHS T___T and I hate BADMINTON T___T ~ Why all those kind of stuffs dun give me up?? Why they have to chase me all the time and kill me ?? T__T Hope nothing horrible will happen to me T___T I'm a kid dun hurt me T__T
*sign*,I still 2 YEARS,and too many things to deal. But I'm ok,yah,afterall,I'm ok


Everything's gonna be find :x


Quote of the day : This is from Shinhwa's " Without you" lyric,it's kinda sad T__T ~ It's too sad and hurtful that even I don understand the whole REAL feeling,still I felt tears stung in my eyes T_T Why life is always not easy and why love sometimes hurts people so bad? T___T
"it felt like you were going to call
it just felt like that today so all day
i didn't meet anyone and i stayed home waiting
i knew after i waited all night
i knew after i cried for a long time
that now you weren't going to call
waiting is no use now"
That's it T__T ~

THIS BLOG IS ON HIATUS ~ UNTIL I'M NOT UPSET ANYMORE or UNTIL I CAN GET ALL THE FREAK THINGS OUT OF MY HEAD or UNTIL I'M FINALLY SATISFIED WITH MYSELF



THAT'S MEAN IT CAN TAKE FOREVER ~~

Shiettt ! I wanna die o___0;;

But anyway,this blog can be stopped rite here rite now !! HELL !!!

WISH ALL OF YOU WILL HAVE NIGHTMARES !!! YES,ALL OF YOU!!! ~ WHY DON'T YOU JUST GO TO THE HELL???? IT'S EXACTLY YOUR HOME,ISN'T IT????? EVIL SHOULD COME AND BRING YOU TO WHERE YOU COME FROM !!!!!
HOW DARE YOU DO THESE TO ME??? HOW DARE YOU??
AND HOW COULD YOU JUST LIVE NORMALLY AS IF YOU DID'NT DO ANYTHING AT ALL??? I MEAN YES,HOW COULD YOU JUST LIVE,EAT,WALK,LAUGH AFTER ALL THOSE THINGS??? SERIOUSLY !! HOW COULD YOU??
I SWEAR I HATE YOU !! Ok,ok,Just live like THAT FOREVER !! UNTIL NONE IN THIS WORLD CAN'T BEAR YOU !!! UNTIL EVERYBODY JUST WANTS TO BREAK YOU INTO 1000000000000x PIECES !!!!
OMFGGGGGGGGG,LIVE THE WAY YOU USED TO !! YES ! I WISH YOU WOULD END UP WITH STABBING YOUSELVES AND DIE !!!!!!!


God,what am i doing T__T ~~ I can't even cry o___o I'm speechless o___o how can all those things just happen to me like that? o___o;;

I JUST WANT TO KILL SOMEONE !~~ EVEN WANNIE !!!! Shiet !!!!!!!! SOMEBODY HELP ME?? SOMEBODY DO SOMETHING !!!! *stab stab*

I think I'm crazy o__o 0__0;;



Anyway,a picture of me -____- ,god,I just bcome more and more terrible everyday ~ I feel like HELL now ~ WTF ;;?? Wonder why could I even SMILE in this pic o___o

Mood : Tired

Song for today : I'll be there _ DBSK

End something and start something brand new. Just one day,an ending,a beginning. Really donno how I feel right now. Just know I now have no more choice. Only way. Have 2 years to do everything I have to do,my future depends on it. And I understand I can't come back anymore.

Actually,my new class is pretty GOOD. It's a good beginning I guess,at least now I believe much more in life.And I swear NONE NONE NONE can beat me this time,don even think abt it. You dare? Good ! But I'll the winner afterall ~ I don scare you and don even care who the heck are you. No more tears for me

But shit ~ ! I have to spend abt ONE year to learn many many general subjects,and most of those are pointless and I have no idea what the hell these stupid subjects for ~ Suck ! And can you believe it ?? My two first classes are BADMINTON !! WTF?? 2 hours ! Just for badminton ~ Aigoooo,seem like my beginning in university is not good at all T.T ~ You know I kinda suck in this kind of thing T__T Shit!

Hope all the classes will be more and more interesting,I have to learn as fast as possible T.T Dob ! Wait for me,I'm commingggggggggg ~! Puhahaha

And muhahah,there're soooo many good (or pretty good =D) boys in my class !!! Yay !! Of course I now donno much abt them -__- but at least they make university much more exciting =D =D Well well well,babes,I'll catch all of you =D =D Today I know the name of one of the boys (actually he's the best of all =D =D) His name is T.T ~ Shit,I don like this name AT ALL !!! I mean it's not bad and it's a popular name T.T But I always hate ALL the boys have that name T____T Such a silly name ~ and I hate the sound of it !!!! STUPID !!!

OMG ~~! OMG!! ~ What the f*** am I talking abt??? I know I have Dob already !!!! But why still care sooo much abt other BOYS??? I mean I'm a boys obsessed !!!!!!!!! Such a pervert I am !!!!!! Bad bad me !!! ^&^*^GU*^&F%$#(&&G^^G*^ soooo embrassing !!!! -_____-