UNFORGETTABLE CHRISTMAS

It was the most beautiful Xmas I've ever had.With all my bestest friends.
I love ya all my precious gurls <333

It seems like sometimes you just realize you're nothing in this world. You think you're good,but then there's someone better than you,and another's much more better than you.Haisshh,here I go again talking nonsense .... It's better if I just shut up -__-;

Today I found a community which provides a lot of surveys in Livejournal :x ~ HAHAHA I copied some of them and will finish ALL after the exams HAHAHAHA I lurveeeee to fill out random surveys,although sometimes it's just answering same questions over again and again =D I have 7 saved in Word already HAHAHA,will answer and post one by one later xD

Today I take a LOVE survey HAHAHA,me the one who've never had a bf before =D
Here we go ! xD

Is there someone who you like at the moment?: Like? Then yes HAHAHA I DO like SOMEONE at the moment xD

Have you ever given or been given roses?: No. *feel ridiculously pathetic* HAHAHA

What is your all time favorite romance movie?: "The note book" I guess :)

Are most high school kids infatuated or in love?: No XD

Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?: Yes.I do :) Always.

Do you think that you should become friends with someone first?: Hmm,yes,I think so. But it's Love we're talking about,who knows for sure? =D

Have you ever had your heart broken?: No.Luckily.

What do you think about long-distance relationships?: It depends. It's not the long-distance here,it's the 2 people of the relationship.

Your thoughts on online relationships?: I personally don believe in this kind of relationship.I mean making friends online is O.k,but when it comes to Love.. Anyway,some couples around me come from Yahoo!Messenger =D,and I think their relationship are as good as other regular couples ~ Oh well whatever ~~!~ HAHAHA

Would you rather date someone five years older or five years younger?: Five years OLDER ! I don mind if he's even 9 years older than me HAHAHA

Have you ever seen a friend as more than a friend?: Hmm.No!

Do you believe the statement, "Once a cheater always a cheater"?: Oh God I dunno HAHAHA ~ But I guess even a cheater will have a right person for him/her +___+

How many kids do you want to have?: 2.A son AND a daughter.But I don mind if I have 2 sons HAHAHAHA

Do you usually fall for a wrong guy/girl or the right guy/girl?: Wrong ones HAHAHAHA

What is your favorite color?: I love bright colors xD But if I have to choose just one,then ORANGE ! xD

What are your views on gay marriages?: There's nothing wrong if they love each other,but I have to admit I'll feel uncomfortable when there's a gay couple around. -__-;

Have you ever broken someone's heart?: No HAHAHA

Are you the one who makes the move or do you wait for them to make the move?: I'm not the kind who follows the person I like HAHAHA

Imagine you're 79 & your spouse just died, would you remarry?: Oh God No HAHAHAHA I would like to save money for my coffin than for marrying HAHAHA

Do you think remarriage is betrayal?: No.Not at all

At what age did you start noticing the opposite/same sex?: Don remember.It just comes.. :)

What song do you want played as you walk down the aisle?: Canon :x

Who was your FIRST love?: No.I've not had my first love yet.HAHA it's pathetic yet true -__-; I don think I really/truly loved someone before.Just some childish crushes only xD

First off I want to say the Camping event is a BIG disappointment.It was boring,tired and lame and 86&^*^*BJ^&( ~ I just should have stayed home,sleeping,being warm and comfortable. I know it was a big effort of my university organizing this event,but shiet ..... Well,may be I was sick from the start,I mean cough,runny nose +_+,sore throat,the weather also drove me nuts.Besides,I didn't have a chance to camp with my same faculty friends and shared camp with other class,I mean it lost all its meaning T___T But I know I got a right decision to go home last night.If I had stayed and slept overnight,donno what would have happened T____T One of my friend stayed and nearly died of coldness and hunger.

The only highlight was : They danced "Hey! Come on" of SHINHWA HAHAHAHA I swear I was like a crazy girl when hearing that familiar sound HAHAHA Too pitiful all of those ppl around at that time didn't know and throwing odd glares to me when I was singing along ~ Haishh,they were just DUMB T____T But what I can say,except the "Hey! Come on" song,the rest is ridiculous T____T Ok ok I'm none here criticizing ppl,but wat the f*ck they danced like freak !!! I'm not stupid comparing them with SHINHWA dear but God at LEAST .... at least... well I dunno ~ You should have watched them last night T___T Whatever ~___~

So as I said I left the camp last night ~ this morning I went out with Chi !! HAHAHA it has been 1 month since the last time I saw her HAHAHA Man we made appointment so many times but always end up delaying ~___~ Well we went eat breakfast near our High School ~ haishhh the good old days ~____~ Then we went to the park HAHAHAHA ~ We took some pics by her cellphone so they're not really nice ~ But half a loaf is better than no bread HAHAHAH
They're all PSed it's the secret ;] HAHAHA

Me and Chi ~ God we're so.... T____T And I looked stupid Y__Y

Me being scared to death ~ It was really high,really.And I scare of height. And NO,I was not trying to act like a CHILD !! I was scared ! REALLY ! SERIOUSLY !
HAHAHA ~ I'm not scared anymore HAHAHA Cause we nearly reached the ground HAHAHA
Chi ~ Being brave today ~ HAHA

Me here ~

The rests I'm so lazy to post and comment HAHAHA mayb later?? ;D

I told you this : None can replace Shinhwa in my heart.And trust me,I've never,not even ONCE I swear,had the thought finding someone to replace them.
All the tears for them,none can have
All the emotions for them,none can have
All the love,all the respect,all the loyalty for them,none will have
They will forever be in my heart,like one of the most beautiful memories I have in my life
I'm not like many fans out there,keep saying "Shinhwa is the love of my life"
No,Shinhwa to me is not love,not only love
They're something else,which cannot be described by any word in this world
And although there will be a time they not in the stage anymore,I'm still here always support them no matter what
They're Shinhwa.Eric,Minwoo,Dongwan,Hyesung,Junjin,Andy none can charge it
God made them special
I never have to hesitate from the start
I love them from the start
I choose them from the start
The part in my heart for them,there's no doubt in it

Mood : Tired to death O___O
Song for today : Sleepless beauty _ "Gravitation" anime OST

Two weeks before Christmas. Haish,everything's too fast I'm kinda scared T___T. The weather is colder and colder I just wanna sleep or nuzzle into the blanket all day (-___-;).Today I woke up realizing my throat was sore like hell T__T.There's no surprise here,ahh,no,it's been about 3 months since the last time I had a sore throat,and it's the surprise here -__- normally it only takes 2 weeks for me to have a sore throat o__o It seem become a chronic ~__~
Dam.n,the sore throat disappeared for several months and then now it re-appear at the least suspicious time.It drives me nut -__- Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh &^*Y^**VJ^^^GGH^^$$#)(#
Last Sunday my mom and I went shopping for winter stuffs.I got 2 pairs of shoes kekeke,bunch of socks,gloves;new hat,new scarf,new glass HAHAHA,new lipstick also O__O.The lipstick for my mom though -__-,I don need to use that kind of thing ~___~. Too bad I've not got a new coat as expected yet -__-; Almost my clothes for winter are short T__T shiet they make me look ridiculous ~ *sigh*
And I'm addicted to some animes recently.I don have any real interest in the general manga/anime thingies ~__~ I love REAL characters more :P I like to read mangas though :P,but just some really popular mangas released in Vietnam :) Like Doraemon,Zindo or Conan =D =D Hahaha They're all funny :x
But last weekend I started watching "Gravitation" and "Loveless".They're both shounen-ai if you wanna know XD You donno what shounen-ai is?? Go find out yourself ! HAHAHA ~ OMG They're soooo sooo good :x I just can't help watching all the episodes non stop (-___-;) Actually,I'm VERY new with Yaoi/BL anime ~__~ It's kinda strange first o__o and it's still a little weird to me now though,but I can't deny the fact that it's interesting :D
However,I'm a little picky to this kind of stuff :D I prefer anime to manga,although manga is original :D ~ cause anime is safer I think =D =D And I just watch the serie which has a REAL plot and the character look is NICE =D I mean there are some anime which ppl say very good and awesome.But when I saw some pictures of the animes,and if they looked old and ugly,I would never watch them.Like Aino ku sabi or something I don remember +_+,many ppl said it was a very very good anime, but I watched some preview and pardon me I just couldn't bear the LOOK of the characters +__+ It was creepy to me +__+ To me,when it comes to this kind of stuff,if the characters look ugly (to me though) or not smooth (if you get what I mean),I will feel nasty or disgusting.No matter how awesome the plot is. (-___-;)
"Gravitation" and "Loveless" are two of the most (if I don say the most) popular shounen-ai mangas/animes.What can I say? They're simply fantastic :x At first I thought I love Gravi more bcause it's "brighter",more human,funnier and even easier to understand. Loveless is a bit eerie?? sometimes you watch it you would be confused ~___~ But now when I finished both series,I just can’t say which I love more.They’re quite different ! Gravitation make me die of its cuteness,entertainment and all the humorous situations :x But Loveless has its unique atmosphere which no one can has,the plot is beautiful and deep.Loveless make me seriously be obssesed ~~ In Gravitation,I love Yuichi to death,I don care ppl who say he too overacts I don care I don care he’s the best too me. Sooooooooo adorable I wanna pinch his cheeks :x And I don like Yuiki >”< He’s too complicated in love it makes me tired. He’s completely different from Shoubi of Loveless,he loves one and only one,he loves and he expresses it. But RITSUKA beats ALL HAHAHA !!! Aww,he’s such a cutie yet sexy,intelligent,brave,special and ALL :x and he has kitty ears and tail that makes him unique HAHAHAHA So dam.n sexy I wanna die O___O

The OSTs of both anime ROCK !! Soo sooo soo good ~ especially Loveless ~ And it’s the OST that make me be obssesed :x From Gravi I love Glaring dream,Sleepless beauty,From Loveless I love ALL of the songs <3333.>

But then there’s still one thing which annoys me ~ It’s the ending ~ Dam.n it ppl say it ending so just make it be the REAL ending !! Have I ever told you that the thing I hate the most is the “OPEN” ending??? I’m a simple person and I want an ending with all its meaning. Loveless make me pissed the most !!!!!! Shiet I just can’t get anything from it !!! What will happen with Ritsuka and Shoubi?? Ritsuka’s just 12 !!! And the last episode named “Endless” T___T Dam.n T___T There’re some hopes there will be Loveless 2 but some ppl say it’s impossible ~ Shiet T____T More ! I want more !!! T__T I’ve not had enough of Risuka yet o___o;

--- Oh I must go right now ~___~ Will be back and edit it later o__o

It’s almost Christmas already ~ Last Christmas was the most boring Xmas I’ve had. This year seems not different. We intend to have HC Reunion again, due to the Come back special of Hoi oppa =D. But then I’m too busy to have a party at that time *sigh* ~~ I don wanna say nonsense thing,but really,this year is the hardest year of ever to me.You don believe it but I swear there’s nothing in this year I’m satisfied with.Everything is a BIG disappointment,everything is against me.There’s even no happy time,well,there is I guess,but I can’t remember them anymore...

I’m really tired I can’t take it any longer. Just want this year to end as fast as possible.But then again,will everything be different in the new year? Or it’s still horrible as hell like that? The weather has been real cold recently,and it just makes me feel more lonely and pathetic than ever.It sounds like I’m a depressed person,and feel bad for everything I have,but trust me,I’m more optimistic than you are ;) ~ Sometimes I just couldn’t function why a thing would turn out so badly like that? It was too incomprehensible,which made me feel ridiculous.What did I do? Am I that bad? Did I hurt someone? Did I say something horrible? I’m not the most innocent girl in this world,and of course I DID hurt someone ,here or there ! But Did I deserve it?

I’m good .. I believe it

Actually,my life was never like that before.I mean I too had difficulties,but after each year,there was always something I was satified with,this or that... always.. Now I feel like I’m being punished,there were so many times I was too pissed off I just could not understand what was happening and why everything was just so bad like that..Why? Why? Why? Always the same question,spinning crazily in my head ~

I can’t handle it..I’m tired... I just wanna explode

And really I now don know what’s exactly I can expect in.What do I have afterall? Like always,studying is my strength.But as the worst year in history as it is,school just makes me more tired,if don say,it makes the most stress to me.

Now I’m counting down impatiently for the new year to come. And I don dare to know wat the f*ck reason make me have the hope everything will charge in the next year ~ Why I have to know anyway? At least I have a thing to do ~ Just one second make me forget everything out there is precious

Tomorrow is another day afterall.

Yeah,I’m ok

12/7 EDIT :

Haishhhhhh.I’ve just re-read all the things I wrote yesterday.It’s true that’s this year is so hard and everything is so mean to me. But who cares? Who am I? I’m not the best,I’m not even that good compared to couple of ppl out there,but I can live through all those things.They’re just nothing,it’s the beginning and I speak like a pathetic loser already??

I have so many things to do,so many people who care for me and love me with all their hearts. Although all the things I wanna do are not amazing as the things other ppl can do,although I’m loved by just a few ppl, I’m still happy. Cause I know I’ll never be alone,ever and ever.I still have my parents,my little stupid dongseng,who care about me no matter what,who never THINK when loving me. And also my grandparents,I’m just sooo soo happy to have them beside me.I have a perfect family,everybody is just good and all.I never have to complain this or that.And I know until the day I die,they’re still the most important persons to me,the whole world can hate me but my dear family.

Friends? I still have my 2 best friends : Chi who sometimes scares me a little lol =D but can go anywhere I want her to go and understand me amazingly and Linh hoi oppa who always always be my best friend,whom I’ll never have to worry when I’m beside her ~~ lol ~ Then I still have HC,a big GANG with crazy crazy girls =D I love you I love you =D University has just started and I don ask a punch of friend.HC became best friends in the last year of High School,didn’t we?? Anyway,I still have Van,who’s sometimes sooo silly and shy funnily but always chooses my first =D And then some friends whom I really like =D

Things? I have TONS of thing !~ I have to finish my exam next month,don’t I ?? ~__~ I still have some works for English Club,don’t I ~ Further,I have to learn Korean.And how can I forget to mention “PIG PROJECT” it’s may b lame to someone but not me ~ It’s a bit dreamy but I know I can do it.Starting a job is always in my list,I just have to choose the right time. Money is always a big big problem. And by the way talking about money,I have to find a way to buy Shinhwa’s stuff too,the first spot in my list right now is the Seoul DVD Concert :x. I’m not scared to even rob the bank to have a copy =D

See? It’s so soo soo many even I’ve not finished yet ~ I know it,I’m not too optimistic to forget all the sadness and obstacles out there,but what’s the point of being so pathetic and keeping complaining about everything? Everything is just there,no matter what you think and feel.It’s just the matter of your attitude.I just can’t be cowardly like that forever,because afterall I still have to face them and deal with them~ ~ What’s the difference here??

I still have to live right? I’m just too young and my future is just too long for me to sound like a loser like that.

But I know it. I have to DO,not just sitting here and speaking empty words.

Just do it already.

Mood : PROUD
Song for today : Once in a life time _ Shinhwa :x

Trust me,I'm the most patient person you can find in the world when it comes to THAT .. I can wait,1 years ..2 years it doesn't matter.Good thing is everything just goes on EXACTLY like I imagined ~ God it makes me sound like an evil,but again trust me,it's ALWAYS TRUE when it comes to THAT...
And suddenly I can't help but being dam.n proud of THEM. I donno but really,it's my feeling right now.THAT'S my ****,I freaking proud of YOU.And seriously until this moment I can understand completely why I ADMIRED THEM from the START.It just like the only one miracle in my life..

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I know it !! I know from the START !!

And *** you poor thing,GIVE UP THAT disgusting creature ~ SERIOUSLY ~ I'm serious like hell you have no idea ~ I don care you NEED it,you WANT it or (*^*GHIU^%#$^b IT'S DISGUSTING !!! AND it's 1000000x % NOT good for you ~ Shiet,don disgust me with THAT thing.I'll vomit all the things I have in my tummy ~ Geez >"< >"< ~ I wish I were your mother o__o; I wish I were your girlfriend O___O So I can STOP you ... I feel helpless what I can do now :( Dam.n it

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So yesterday I couldn’t upload the caps of Minwoo from “Holly Daddy” movie . Well Basically I COULD NOT DO ANYTHING AT ALL !!!!! Shiet really I’m tired of my precious but STUPID FREAKY DAM.NED COMPUTER ~ What’s else can be more freaky than IT?? WTF I’m really pissed off I can’t take it anymore

~ It's slow and always STUCK and always making eerie TROUBLES ~ Can you believe it ? Yesterday I had to download 4 TIMES for the movie “Formula17” Shiet ~!!! So the movie is about 600MB BUT in FACT I HAD to downloaded almost 1 GB!!! I almost cried cause all I could do was CRY AND HELPLESS !! O__O when will I would give up this FREAK ??? >"< Why all this kind of thing always make troubles to my family?? The cable ! The TV ! The telephone AND especially the stupid COMPUTER?? There’s no time when all these horrible creatures work probably at the same time !!! !!! always well ALWAYS one of those things be freaky !!!! Should I add that the computer’ve backed up the 6th time of this year last month????

Ok continue T__T So I couldn’t upload the caps of Minwoo ~ I wanna watch this movie so badly ~ Minwoo looks so HOT and many ppl told he did a best job at the first time as an actor ~ But when I heard the movie made many fans cry too T___T Dam.n that’s why I hesitate T_____T I can't control myself frankly, I don want to be a MESS after watching it ~ The last time I cried was when watching "13 going on 30" HAHAHAHA,I told you it's a COMEDY movie,not quite comedy but ya well .. T___T But I cried,too T___T.. Shiet T___T I should call N Anh and watch this movie together ~___~

Oh well Minwoo in this movie is HOT HOT HOT HOT His smile... T____T ,so if you wanna know how charming he is,see this :

MINWOO YOU SENSELESS MURDERER !!! HAHAHAHAA

And this one is for Junjin cause I've never posted a pic of him since his single was released ~ Sorry Jinjin T__T
Awww so cute T__T

Mood : Bored to death

Song for today : Battle _ M (aka Lee Minwoo :x)

These recent days were such a big joke ~ All the lame things ~ The more I expect,the more I'm disappointed...There was time I just wanna literally kill somebody ~ Too pissed off -__-;

it's not a big deal though,my life's just like that

Last Sunday was really fun ~ HOICHUONG reunion ~ It was sooo good to meet,talk,joke,or even argue with your best friends again after such long time.We charged in someway I thought,like less immature ?? o__o; No? N Anh and Mai have their "affairs" already ~ I find it somehow funny =D Cause c'mon look at them HAHAHAHA o__o It made the rest all jealous HAHAHA Well the rest except me o__o I don find it neccessery to have a boyfriend NOW O__O What’s the point of having boyfriend anyway o__o It just wastes time really ~ ALL I’m thinking about now is “PIG RUN” project HAHAHA,seriously ~_~ seriously I swear ~__~

Well we ate a lot ~ but it’s not the point here cause we always eat a lot =D =D then fought over the foods =D =D,getting odd looks from my neighbors HAHAHA.It was pure fun ~ But then again everything we talked about is so random ~ I mean,it was definitely not like when we were still in High School.I don blame anything we stayed apart and all ,and except Chi I almost didn’t make any contact with the others at all.Like we didn’t have the same problems anymore,what else we can talk about? Ahhhhhhh,what am I thinking??? Mayb I just take it too serious =D =D Nothing’s wrong here.Almost everything was still like as it used to.

Then this week I’m all busy,if not busy studying then busy sleeping HAHAHAHA But I have to admit I slept about 5 times more than I studied =D ~ I loveeeeee sleepingggggg~~ I love I love HAHAHA. The weather is real cold now,aww,that’s MY winter :x And ya know,in this kind of weather,ppl just wanna snuggle up to their Blankets and Pillows ~ so don blame me I’m not different when it comes to this kind of thing HAHAHAHA ~ So warm and so soft ~~~ I just wanna take a nap just thinking about it (-___-)zz

And it was boring ~ I mean it’s always boring what am I complaining about? O__O.Luckily I still have Minwoo to rock my socks =D =D I swear this man is just ... just (%^*%HI(^(%*% I can’t find a dam.n word to describe him ~ Yesterday I watched his solo performance in Tokyo ~ It’s the BESTEST perf I know from him I swear ~ You don’t have to be his fan to find this boy sooo God dam.n attractive . Seriously. Sorry Woohuyk’s fans or Uno’s fans,they two are really AWESOME dancers ~ They even can achive the moves which Minwoo can’t.Watching them dancing just makes me shilver somtimes. But just face it,and don get me wrong MANY ppl say it too. Minwoo’s MORE attractive ! Watching him in the stage,we not only watch and adore,we can FEEL ! His passion,his charm,his love and ALL.Again sorry Bi’s fans,he’s really really sexy but that’s only it ~ when he’s sexy he’s just sexy.But when Minwoo’s sexy,we can feel him cute,charming,and ALL. I say this : If Minwoo was a US singer from the start,he would achieve the spot where Usher or Justin Timberlake is now.

I REALLY respect him,and you can laugh but he’s a stranger I ADMIRE the MOST. I admire all things about him and I look up to him a lot,of course I know I would never do a half of things he did. I said it and now say it again,he’s PERFECT,in MY opinion.Everybody has bad habit,he does too obviously.But what more can we expect in a man??? It may be funny but I’ve NEVER had a “fangirl” dream about him. Cause I just admire him A LOT and I don dare have such kind of thing,not even once. And I don understand why he and THAT girl can’t make it. I mean c’mon he loves her she loves him so why?? But who am I the one who talk? T__T~ But ...well.. I just can’t stand the fact that he was really really hurt,and may be he’s still now.Ppl just TOO complicated,I don understand o___o; He deserves MANY MANY things in this world,I just wanna hug him and tell him everything’s gonna be fine (-___-;) But then again I’m not the one who can do such thing (-___-;) ~ “I don need a girlfriend I just need my fans” is BULL SHI.T ~ Stop speaking like that ya know ya don think so you little poor cutie !! You still have tons of fans even if you have a girlfriend -___-; The image of him in THAT hard time was sooo freaky -___-; Oh God plz love again then I can see a chubby lovely kitty handsome charming Minbongie again -___-; The chubby Minbong just makes me wanna bite him and pinch his cheeks numerous of time !! o___o Love just charges ppl,doesn’t it o___o; mayb he just should forget all about girls and love DONGWAN instead ~~ o__o O__O OmfG HAHAHAHAHAHA what am I thinking AGAIN??? I’m such a geek why don’t I just die already?? HAHAHAHA DON’T blame me it’s all the Woodong fanfics I swear HAHAHA They just spoil me I swear HAHAHA

I still love Woodong and Jinsyung though o____o;

But then don worry,I TRUST him and he CAN do it. One day he’ll have his beautiful ending ;] And remember to thank ME okay??? Cause I’m the one who AlWAYS ALWAYS pray for you HAHAHAHA ! Invite me to your wedding doesn’t hurt HAHAHA. And I’ll raise my daughter and then teach her how to seduce Minwoo’s son HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA :x

Awwww,he just makes my day :x

And I totally forget all about my exam (-_____-;) God it freaks me out (-___-;) Today I DECLARE that I WILL get the HIGHEST MARK in this exam HAHAHAHAHAHA I’m a freak O__O ~ But well,it’s a litte true though o__o Except STUPID BADMINTON AND STUPID MATHS,I can do the best. Well,I’ll try... It’s easy afterall seriously//;

I'm listening to a song called "My tears gather" while writing this entry =D This song's from Junjin's music blog on Park Joon Huyng's FM Ikigayo :x ~ Junjin's voice is absolutely to die for (-__-;) so dam.n warm and manly :x =D *melt* I love I love :x
K,so I should write a long long entry about HOICHUONG REUNION =D but really,it's almost 2.30 AM now ~ and basically I forgot everything HAHAHA so I decide just post pics only o__o;
But still I just post here today a few,cause I hv no time to PSed them =D Plus I don dare to post all the pics where I'm in =D Cause seriously I look like a moron in them O__O SERIOUSLY o__o;
Mayb when I have time,I'll come back and edit this entry ~ But now I just want to go to sleep ~ I have a looonnggg day tomorrow

Hoichuong =D There are 2 missing members here =D Linh oppa who's in Singapore now *miss oppa >"<* and Hang who was taking this pic =D Upside down and from left to right : Hang,Ha,D Ha,Mai,N Anh
And ME +__+ Trust me,it's the best pic of me yesterday O__O
It's BEAUTIFUL,isn't it :x


And the table full of FOOD FOOD and FOOD =D

I have to go to sleep now or else I'll die o__o;

Happy birthday Hyesung sssii :) To you I don have to say much,rite ;]

Mood : Cranky
Song for today : The hell I'll listen to any song,have no mood

REALLY,I'm f*cking pissed off right now and don wanna say a damn world.I'm really upset,seriously.Life is just unfair,I know it.But shiet if it's just always unfair to me like this,I'll explore.
Just try to disturb me,I'll literally KILL you
K,so I'll be off for at least the next 4 weeks,due to the horrible final exam.Doesn't mean I'll not ol anymore but ya know (-___-;) just try to reduce the time -__-;; ~

Pray for me everyone -___-

Donno today is Thanksgiving day =D In Vietnam we don celebrate this day,we even don have this kind of holiday -__-; I donno but we should,you know,giving thanks to everyone ~ It's beautiful =D
Anyway I'll have my thanksgiving day myself ~ AHAHA First,thanks my parents for today's yummy dinner and delicious ice-cream :x =D Mum,dad,you just donno how happy I am when all our family gather,talk and laugh together :x Then thanks my younger sis for being obedient today hahaha (ya know she's always annoying the other days AHAHA) AND also for her kiss in my cheek AHAHAHA *In Vietnam we also don't kiss the others often HAHAHA Thanks Chi_my best friend_ for calling,it's been almost a week since THAT accident =D It was sooooo good to talk with our best friends again :x What's else?? AHAHA there are not many things today -__-;) Thanks Shinhwa for making me smile laugh and even cry. AGAIN. It's just natural when I watch their clips or listening to their music. EVERYDAY :x Thanks Mr Duong (AHAHAHA I donno this Mr AHAHA ,we just talked on phone once today) for reminding me about the interview tomorrow AHAHA I've been thinking about this interview all this week but don remember when it will start MUHAHAHA so anyway,thanks Mr D HAHAHA o__o;
Okay,back to today's topic (-__-;) I have to say I've been REALLY patient with Mr 신혜성
He just charged TOO much and TOO fast ~ I can't CATCH UP !!! What is he thinking NOW? Seriously I wanna know what's he intend to do now?? What do you want now,Mr Charge Suddenly? YOU YOURSELF said that everybody had his own STRONG POINT and he just should have followed his STRONG point !! So what you think you're doing now? o__o;; I tell you this : There's NOTHING wrong if A MAN is BEAUTIFUL !! We FANS don't say anything ~ We LOVE you bcause of IT ! The cuteness,the shyness,the chubby face AND ALL ~ The hell everyone teased you,the hell who told you too girly too pretty too blah blah blah &*GJH^^&* I DON'T CARE why you care??? Muscle doesn't fit you at all ~ What's the point of building MUSCLES anyway?? YOU'RE NOT MINWOO !! you have your own styleand we love your own style that's it -__-; Somebody just hit me,plz O__O And now mustache o__o Your girlfriend wants you to charge,doesn't she?? o__o; Or you want to prove her that you're manly as much as any man in this world?? You're not a child you should know mustache or muscles don't make men more manly o___o YOU'RE SURE a MAN even you're even shier than me O__O but wait,you can't be shy you perform in STAGES. I don't dare to do that even ONCE !!!
First is THIS,I totally forget you Trust me it's nothing I have enough of Minwoo T___T
But this??
You said you had to prepare yourself even you went to the market !! Don't dare appear in the stage with this face T___T
You just should charge to ROCK T__T It's manly,right you think?/ T__T

Mood : Worry ><
Song for today : BSB _ Just want you to know



- It's raining outside now :x It has been such a loooong time there's a big rain like this.The weather becomes more and more annoying seriously.Even the today rain is eerie,too O__O It rains then stops then rains again then stops again o.O ~ I wonder when winter will come (-__-;) seriously I'm tired of this freaking hot weather,makes me always feel dirty and annoying -_- At least winter doesn't make me feel dirty -__-; Today I went out from home at 6h30 am with just a SHIRT o__o Dam.n it's cold like hell o__o So I decided to go home and wear some more clothes AHAHAHA But shiet as if it wanted to kill me or something o__o the weather became hotter and hotter after that O__O I ended up being teased by all the classmates in English class,they told me to take off my coat -__- HELL NO !! >,<><
- I'll start my IELTS class this Friday -_-;
- I'll have my final exam in this mid December O______O iWONTFAILDAM.NIT o__o;;
- My new school is GORGEOUS o.O
- A boy attracted my attention o__o I won't say much cause you know how random I am ~ but shiet I like his smile o__o And his style,no?? o__o Ok forget abt it o_o
- This Sunday there's will be a HOICHUONG REUNION AHAHAHA They should prepare my birthday presents or I'll STAB them AHAHAA
- I started listening to BSB's musik again -___- Old things are always good things -__-;;
- I want to learn Japanese soon o__o; Some days ago I promised with my mum I would learn Japanese,Korean and Chinese o__o Dam.n it I donno what I was thinking at that moment o__o;
- Some Shinhwa fans said they had heart attack when they read the rumor about Shinhwa_break_up ~ I tell you I find it really funny =D I NEVER (not even once) thought it would be true ~ The idea even never popped in my head ~ And when I read abt the news I SWEAR to God I didn't feel worry at all.It's just NATURAL.Seriously.There's nothing make Shinhwa break up,c'mon you're a Shinhwa fan rite? -__-; I still find it interesting that I had no reaction after reading the news though =D SHINHWA IS EVERLASTING,okay? I don find any reason for the fans just keep thinking Shinhwa will break up or something like that AHAHA sorry I think it's funny
- Hyesung's birthday is coming soon =D
- You recognized it huh? lol NEW SKIN !! :x

Mood : Excited
Song for today : In me,there's you _ Lee Seung Gi

Finally, news about Shinhwa go to the army.Dongwan will appear in a drama called "Turtle" (the name sounds soo cute ^______^) before .. well ya know.. Also in YSMM talk show,JJ mentioned about joining the military service. And except Minwoo and Eric will surely go to the army,the fans are also not sure about Hyesung. Because if Junjin goes,then mayb Hyesung will go,too. Is it sad? Ya,that's obviously sad. The fans are all upset about it cause 2 years is too much for them to handle -___-.
But I'm not sad. I mean,yes of course I'm not happy when all my boys go to the army and can not appear in stage and all the shows,but I'm also not THAT upset. There are 2 main reasons ~ First of all,I think it's time for Shinhwa to stop No no no,don't misunderstand,hek I can't find any better world >,<. I mean I don want to see DBSK or other boybands dominate my boys slowly. The truth is : Shinhwa's still the best boyband out there. Even though nowadays DBSK is everywhere but I don care. Shinhwa's obviously the best,no competition. But what about the next year,the next 2 years,and in the future? There will be a time Shinhwa is not only the best anymore,but also even just the 4-5th boyband. Seriously -__- Everything has its own climax,for Shinhwa they had the bestest climax,and I really really really don want to see them slip them that climax slowly. It hurts.
So 2 years is seriously a good break for them. And then after that when they come back,they don have to suffer the pressure as the best boyband anymore.At that time,we'll call them LEGEND. ( Like H.O.T,even though nowadays each piece of this band can't be successful like they used to,but H.O.T stopped when they were at their climax,and we respect them with all the things they did in the past. Who knows? If now they're still a band,will they be THAT successful?? At their time,they were the best,but just imagine how hard to maintain the incredible success like that !)
And secondly,I want my boys to do all the things as many many other mature can do. I don want to see them like BYJ,find a way to avoid joining military service.It’s cowardly. Seriously. They’re all mature men,so let’s do the things to prove their manhood. I’ll cry when watching them going away. But I’ll totally proud about them. Be brave and go foward. Though I don't like the idea all the man have to join the army in at least 2 years,it's somehow not fair,I must say I support them joining the army. Go all my boys !

But there’s a thing I hate that everybody just keep saying the world “last”,last concert,last fan meeting,last drama,last album. Damn it I feel sick ! I feel just like Shinhwa will go away forever. 2 years is not short but not THAT long. I can wait. No matter what.

And damn it I won’t find another artist to support when there’s no Shinhwa.The hell any of those gasoos will replace,even provisional, Shinhwa. Battle? Shiet I don even know who is who in this band.

May b then I’ll not be addicted to computer that much anymore. Hope so.

Yesterday I’ve sent the English club CV! I’ll have an interviewed next week if there’s nothing wrong. It’s absolutely interesting!! Media! Photoshop! And English ! Can it be more perfect? :x Hope I’ll pass cause they just select 2 or 3 persons I don remember exactly.

I also joined some games in the Wansyung event of SHCJ ^____^ I donno this time the games seem to easier than usual. I sent the first game’s answer ~ I think I’m FAST !!! ^______^ Some people’re still stuck J But not sure if I’m the fastest?? O___O I want to get the A+ o__o

And the PS contest I’ve actually done. But I’m not confident cause my banner looks dumb to me o___o;; And this time there’s many big strong enemies =D =D =D Not just some random and small contests in YAN when I get the 1st place easily o__o. You can see my banner here (It's difficult cause I have to insert many line texts,besides it must be BLACK and WHITE to fit the forum o___o,damn it I know I'll lose,some of them do it easily and finished it already. They're also sooo confident o__o I feel dumb o__o) : Click me because ya know I'm cool

Today all students major Makerting gathered ~ It was the 1st time and we just had 12 o___o;; The rest I donno o__o Woa seem all of them are really nice =D Hope we’ll be good friends J

JJ’s single is good ~ But actually I don like it THAT much,but I can’t deny the fact that he improved a lot. Shinhwa’s different from DBSK. As much as I love Shinhwa, I think every members of DBSK can sing. In Shinhwa before there were only Hyesung Minwoo and Dongwan. But now I can say Junjin’s much more better and he CAN sing . Andy’s rap is actually pretty good. But poor baby boy doesn’t have much chance to prove himself. Seriously, Eric why don’t you give up some of your parts to your dongseng?? You have everything already. Hek I’m so childish o__o May b this is not the problem who gives up to who o__o But .. but.. o__o Damn it o__o

Okay I’m off ^_______________^

Mood : Sleepy -__-zz
Song for today : The day _ Minwoo + Hyesung


Today is my favorite day =D : 9 is my love number and November is my love month =D =D So although now I'm really sleepy and just wanna go to bed early,I still try to write something -__- Oh well -___-"
Seriously,I'm freaking lazy nowadays,I don do anything except sleeping and eating -___- That's horrible o__o; Yesterday I woke up at 12 AM and realized that I already missed my morning class ~ And it was 12 AM ( I repeat !_) so that means I also missed my afternoon class !! Shiet that I wanna stab myself o__o;; And damn it I also couldn't give the teacher my ESSAY !! Oh dear I swear I wanna die o__o THAT essay which I used almost 3 hours to write and pretty satisfied with it !! o___o;;
I SMSed for Chi told her I would go take her at 3,but at last she said 3 was early and MOSTLY because I wanna sleep some more o__o So well ~~ o__o I arrived to her house at 4 instead o__o. We spent about 4 hours going around and around o__o That time was rush hour I should add and that was truly hell o__o We were stuck o__o At first we said we would buy books but ya know,girls are always girls o__o I myself ended up buying a lip care and a nail paint o__o;; And some random things I don dare remember o__o Chi bought another notebooks o__o ( The 10000xth notebook I guess o__o;;) and many beauty products o__o;;
But though we talked a lot in the way,it was fun,I mean it always fun =D University time prevents us for chat chitting =D =D We laughed and made fun like we always do -__- We also talked about our future plan,about the BIG project " Pig run" =D =D It was kinda lame o__o But well at least we believe in it and trying to reach our own goal ~ ~~ I also realize we're still such 2 silly kids o__o;; Nothing charges at all o__o;;
Today I also woke up at 11 AM o__o;; This time I don even bore to stab myself o__o Damn it I'm helpless with myself o__o Just less than 1 month and I'll have many exams o__o but I am still like this o__o;; I will not be surprised if I will have to retake some tests again 0__0
So I went to school and spent 2 Math hours to help my friend do her English exercise o__o;; Damn o__o I like English T__T Maths is HELL !!! T__T
Next were 3 Geography hours o__o ~ But because they took roll call at the first hour,my friend said we would break away from school AHAHAHAHA And I agreed o__o So now I'm sitting here,writing this boring entry -___-
Damn it and seriously I help to STOP being like this. Seems like I'm out of control now -___- Ya,studying is the MOST important -___- Really,I felt regret -___-

I'm off o__o;; ( I wanna watch Jindy Goldfish but I'm not sure o__o May be I should take a nap instead o__o )


p/s : I promised a Shinhwa's pic o__o Shiet I swear I'll finish some soon o__o I've barely done any icon recently -__-
And ya shiet I HATE YOU,****,I HATE YOU !! I HATE YOU MOST !!!!! LOOK !! I SWEAR WE WILL BEAT YOU !! I SWEAR !! I FREAKING HATE YOU YOU HAVE NO IDEA !! YOU **** AND ALL YOUR ****

I miss Dob suddenly T___T

Mood : Blank o__o
Song for today : Untouchable _ M

God I'm such a geek ><>< I don even know what's exactly happening with me right now?/ I want to explore o___o
Damn it dunno why but recently I've been yearning to kill someone o___o or stab something o__o And last Saturday I did the most random and stupid and craziest of my whole life until now : Crying in my class with no reason o___o;; Shiet I didn't understand why I cried at all o__o So when my friend asked I just shook my head no o__o Poor some classmates sat near me were totally pointless and gave me some odd looks o__o Damn tears just fall down continuously ~ Well I don blame them cause I know I'm crazy o__o;; Shiet !! o__o
I always said I don want to look back the past,just going forward but damn it some recent days I just wanna be a child a again o___o WTF the though was just spinning in my head . And last Sunday I watched "13 going on 30" o__o I swear bfore I watched it,I had still think it was just a lollipop _ movie o__o That kind of movie we watch them once and immediately forget all about it ~ But it's GREAT movie I swear,it's simply beautiful and its simplicity makes it beautiful ~ God and Jen Garner was so gorgeous I can't help being jealous o__o Seriously,this movie makes me want to be a child again more and more o__o Shiet o__o But in one scene Jenna Rink's mother said she didn't want to come back time,cause even if she did and many mistakes could be corrected,she knew that if there was no mistake then ppl just couldn't improve
Oh well watever o_o I still want to come back though o__o Damn it I love this line : "Who are these women? Does anyone know? I don't recognize any of them. I want to see my best friend's big sister, the girls from the soccer team, my next door neighbor, real women who are smart and pretty and happy to be who they are. These are the women to look up to. Let's put life back into the magazine. And fun and laughter and silliness. I think we all - I think all of us - want to feel something that we've forgotten or turned our backs on because maybe we didn't realize how much we were leaving behind. We need to remember what used to be good. If we don't, we won't recognize it even if it hits us between the eyes. "
I just want to say something meaningful like this ONCE in my whole pointless life o___o
ahhhhhhhh,what's wrong with my optimistic person??? o____o

And recently,bcause I'm too idle,and do not anything AT ALL,I start reading Woodong fanfics
God,but I swear if I dun find a great fanfic writer like Choi,I'll never ever ever be addicted like THAT -___- I mean of course her story includes some "not_for_children" stuffs ( OMG I'm sooooo ashameddddd TT____TT) but it's a real story ~ ! She connected the past and the present perfectly in the story. Besides,the characters' personalities consistent throughout the story,so real that even affects my thought abt Shinhwa in real life
Shiet,I should stop before it's too late +___+

And Today,I've watched "You're my everything" M/V ~ And I CRIED !!! OMFG I swear to God if I have to sell some of my stuffs or even to rob the bank o____o,I'll do to buy Live Concert in Seoul ! The thing is the price of the DVD is abt 30$ + ship = approximately 1.000.000 VND (6 zeros,okay?) I wanna die o____o"

If don say just next months I'll have many exams o____o Maths and Badminton totally kill me o___o I don want to fail o___o;; and I must NOT fail o__o ok ok except Badminton -___-;; Trust me,my head is blank now o___o But I don want to FAIL !! I MUST PASS !!!!!

o___________________________o;;

Tonight I must finish an essay and some horrible Maths exercises o___o I hate Maths o___o Why it wanna kill me or something?? and environment science + economic geography (or whatever they call o__o) are waiting for me,too o___o Okay I'm lazy and I should stop complaining non stop like that but seriously ALL those subjects sure come from hell (well,mayb except geography ^^,it's interesting though xD) BORING,USELESS ( well mayb useful for someone ELSE but NOT ME ><) and LONG !!! ( 5 hours if you wanna know o__O) Even badminton is better o___o

Now off -___-


p/s : Today I d/led tons of PS stuffs >< I still want to kill my computer for backing up 3th time within 2 months o__o and each time it deleted all my PS stuffs o__o Shiet I want all my precious texture to come back =____- I swear to God if it does it to me once more time,I'll literally throw it out the window . And trust me,I'll do it -_______- Anyway,I want to ps some Shinhwa's pics :x Hope I'll finish it as expect o___o at least ONE,huh? -___- I'll be back =D =D


p/s 2 HAHAHA : I love Minwoo's voice :x I know Sungie's the greatest of all but I just really really Min's style :x It kills me o___o OMFG the way he "feels" o__o
His 1st solo album is just amazing,I mean everybody say "IInd Wind" rocks but well I love his 1st solo style ~ I miss the lovey cutie little kitty yummy Minbongie ~ I just miss it so much it almost hurt >.<>,< I hate the way he being right now ~ as if he wants to work and work and work to forget everything !!~ He even said he didn't need love right now WTF ??? He even sang " So sick" of Neyo in his recent concert . Damn it poor Minwoo,he's perfect and he deserves everything




seriously

Oh yah,I have to make sure I'm the FIRST person says "Happy birthday" today =D
Wow ~ EIGHTEEN !! ^^ I fell so OLD now =D
Now I can get my own drive license =D AND I'm old enough to get married,aren't I =D =D
This year was such a hard year for me,but I won't talk abt it anymore,cause afterall I'M STILL HERE,rite?? :) And I'm still a silly girl who laughs and cries everyday ~ Still a moody and scary girl =D =D
No turning bak,just go foward ^______________^ RIGHT?? ^___________^
Hope everything is gonna be fine this year,and I myself know I'm still have many many mistakes to correct,sometimes I were so mean and bad TT_____TT True that I'm old now,and have to learn how to live well ^^
This time next year I'll still sitting here,still smiling and being opstimistic
And This time 2 years after now,I'll being where I wanna be so bad =D

Once again

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME !!! <3333

Start this entry with a song of Radio head ~ I felt totally shock when I read it -__- it's 100% what's exactly in my mind ~ Yah,sometimes I just want to be special,i'm such a creep -___-

Creep
When you were here before, couldn't look you in the eye

You're just like an angel, your skin makes me cry

You float like a feather In a beautiful world

And I wish I was special You're so fucking special

But I 'm a creep, I 'm a weirdo

What the hell am I doing here

I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts, I want to have control

I want a perfect body, I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice

When I'm not around

You're so fucking special

I wish I was special

She's running out again She's running out ....

Whatever makes you happy Whatever you want

You're so fucking special I wish I was special...

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo

What the hell am I doing here?

I don't belong here I don't belong here.

So today I read that writing diary daily is a good habit,and almost none know my blog anyway =D So yeah,I will try to write 1 entry per day =D You know I'm lazy like hell T__T AND my life is full of randoms and boring and terrible and %%&%V*())*### things T__T

I went with Van (my new good friend in university =D) to her uncle's house,she'll have her new computer T_T I'm so jealous T_T I need a new computer so badly it hurt T________T !! My computer is such a b*tch T_____T Can you believe it?? I have to have it repaired 3 times already,in abt,hmm,2 months!!! WTF?? And the last time was just last week T__T And my computer is almost BLANK o_____o;; AGAIN o___o ALL my softwares ! ALL my files !! It pissed me off sooo much o___o ~ Cause you donno how hard to download from STUPID clubbox T__T AND how to find all the softwares T.T I feel like hell !!!!! AND it's not the ending T.T I lost ALL my PS stuffs o___o ALL my texts,ALL my brushes T_T ALL my texture and %%*%GJH^%&%$$ I just wanna die o____o WTF??? -_____-

And I also want a camera though,not exactly a camera T.T You know, the thing can be USB,play video and music,take pics and record T.T I want to be a camwhore T__T My walkman is somewhere I dunno and my MP3 is always stupid T_T ~ I need money $__$ huhuuhu ~ T____T

And I'm on a diet o___o AGAIN ~ i'm too fat o___o I feel like a pig o___o Shiettttt o___o Why do I have to be on diet anyway?? o___o I mean WTF i like chubby person o___o I 100% HATE skinny person ~ They have something makes me want to kick their asses T__T Hyesung is skinny BUT his face looks chubby !! But well you know,ppl dun want to be fat OR be called fat ~ AND i'm TOO fat,not just fat T__T So well... T_T

I'm tired,the weather is fucking hot and annoy T_T And i'm sick of ALL the boring subjects in University ~ Well,except something,I'm sick of everything T___T

I've bought 2 new books ~ They're excellent ^^ That kind of books that help you improve urself and be better ~ Oh well,it's extremely interesting , meaningful,useful and helpful ~ Have not finished them yet ~ but will soon =D Tomorrow I'll bring them to my class and read !!!! Muhahaha ~ Fertilizers make me sick T__T What's the hell they're for?? I don want to be a makerter in a fertilizer company anyway T__T

I just wanna sleep and eat o____o ~ But i'm on a diet,aren't I o___o ~

Here I am ~ again *sigh*,ya,me here. Again !
I admit,I was pretty upset when I wrote the previous entry ~ I was like... wanna die or kill something o__o I almost stressed at that time -___- felt really bad about everything ~ I don want to complain anymore,or talk abt THAT anymore ~ I'm sick of it and yah,I don care abt it ~ DON care it A BIT
As I said,life is beautiful when you look at its bright side ~ I'm trying. And I think it really can help. I feel much more better now :) Thanks God I'm a optimistic person -__- ~ Okay,I'm a MOODY girl o______0 ~ But still,I've never been depressed for a long time -___-
It have been 2 weeks since my first day in University,I swear it's boring like HELL ~ boring than High school abt 10x times o___o;; ALL the general stuffs o____o Except some subjects,the rests are incredibely horrible o___o ~ What's the hell in this world fetilizers for?? I mean WTF?? o___o;; Not to mention today I sucked at BADMINTON class o___o ~ I feel helpless T.T
But anyway,university is fun in its own way.C'mon,it's just 2 weeks isn't it ~ I have a long way to go still -___-
Today was my FIRST communication skills class ~ It was kinda weird to me o___o;;~ But I believe it will help me alot to improve myself. It's time to act,say and live like a mature girl ~ Yah,maaaaturrrre girl -___- Time to deal with all those stuffs -___- I still think I'm a kid though o____o;; I feel helpless o__o (again T.T)
The next 2 month,I will have my first exams in University,I still have no clue 0___0 ~ I'm scare to death ~ What if I fail??? T__T I hate MATHS T___T and I hate BADMINTON T___T ~ Why all those kind of stuffs dun give me up?? Why they have to chase me all the time and kill me ?? T__T Hope nothing horrible will happen to me T___T I'm a kid dun hurt me T__T
*sign*,I still 2 YEARS,and too many things to deal. But I'm ok,yah,afterall,I'm ok


Everything's gonna be find :x


Quote of the day : This is from Shinhwa's " Without you" lyric,it's kinda sad T__T ~ It's too sad and hurtful that even I don understand the whole REAL feeling,still I felt tears stung in my eyes T_T Why life is always not easy and why love sometimes hurts people so bad? T___T
"it felt like you were going to call
it just felt like that today so all day
i didn't meet anyone and i stayed home waiting
i knew after i waited all night
i knew after i cried for a long time
that now you weren't going to call
waiting is no use now"
That's it T__T ~

THIS BLOG IS ON HIATUS ~ UNTIL I'M NOT UPSET ANYMORE or UNTIL I CAN GET ALL THE FREAK THINGS OUT OF MY HEAD or UNTIL I'M FINALLY SATISFIED WITH MYSELF



THAT'S MEAN IT CAN TAKE FOREVER ~~

Shiettt ! I wanna die o___0;;

But anyway,this blog can be stopped rite here rite now !! HELL !!!

WISH ALL OF YOU WILL HAVE NIGHTMARES !!! YES,ALL OF YOU!!! ~ WHY DON'T YOU JUST GO TO THE HELL???? IT'S EXACTLY YOUR HOME,ISN'T IT????? EVIL SHOULD COME AND BRING YOU TO WHERE YOU COME FROM !!!!!
HOW DARE YOU DO THESE TO ME??? HOW DARE YOU??
AND HOW COULD YOU JUST LIVE NORMALLY AS IF YOU DID'NT DO ANYTHING AT ALL??? I MEAN YES,HOW COULD YOU JUST LIVE,EAT,WALK,LAUGH AFTER ALL THOSE THINGS??? SERIOUSLY !! HOW COULD YOU??
I SWEAR I HATE YOU !! Ok,ok,Just live like THAT FOREVER !! UNTIL NONE IN THIS WORLD CAN'T BEAR YOU !!! UNTIL EVERYBODY JUST WANTS TO BREAK YOU INTO 1000000000000x PIECES !!!!
OMFGGGGGGGGG,LIVE THE WAY YOU USED TO !! YES ! I WISH YOU WOULD END UP WITH STABBING YOUSELVES AND DIE !!!!!!!


God,what am i doing T__T ~~ I can't even cry o___o I'm speechless o___o how can all those things just happen to me like that? o___o;;

I JUST WANT TO KILL SOMEONE !~~ EVEN WANNIE !!!! Shiet !!!!!!!! SOMEBODY HELP ME?? SOMEBODY DO SOMETHING !!!! *stab stab*

I think I'm crazy o__o 0__0;;



Anyway,a picture of me -____- ,god,I just bcome more and more terrible everyday ~ I feel like HELL now ~ WTF ;;?? Wonder why could I even SMILE in this pic o___o

Mood : Tired

Song for today : I'll be there _ DBSK

End something and start something brand new. Just one day,an ending,a beginning. Really donno how I feel right now. Just know I now have no more choice. Only way. Have 2 years to do everything I have to do,my future depends on it. And I understand I can't come back anymore.

Actually,my new class is pretty GOOD. It's a good beginning I guess,at least now I believe much more in life.And I swear NONE NONE NONE can beat me this time,don even think abt it. You dare? Good ! But I'll the winner afterall ~ I don scare you and don even care who the heck are you. No more tears for me

But shit ~ ! I have to spend abt ONE year to learn many many general subjects,and most of those are pointless and I have no idea what the hell these stupid subjects for ~ Suck ! And can you believe it ?? My two first classes are BADMINTON !! WTF?? 2 hours ! Just for badminton ~ Aigoooo,seem like my beginning in university is not good at all T.T ~ You know I kinda suck in this kind of thing T__T Shit!

Hope all the classes will be more and more interesting,I have to learn as fast as possible T.T Dob ! Wait for me,I'm commingggggggggg ~! Puhahaha

And muhahah,there're soooo many good (or pretty good =D) boys in my class !!! Yay !! Of course I now donno much abt them -__- but at least they make university much more exciting =D =D Well well well,babes,I'll catch all of you =D =D Today I know the name of one of the boys (actually he's the best of all =D =D) His name is T.T ~ Shit,I don like this name AT ALL !!! I mean it's not bad and it's a popular name T.T But I always hate ALL the boys have that name T____T Such a silly name ~ and I hate the sound of it !!!! STUPID !!!

OMG ~~! OMG!! ~ What the f*** am I talking abt??? I know I have Dob already !!!! But why still care sooo much abt other BOYS??? I mean I'm a boys obsessed !!!!!!!!! Such a pervert I am !!!!!! Bad bad me !!! ^&^*^GU*^&F%$#(&&G^^G*^ soooo embrassing !!!! -_____-